It's hard to explain

Just like a cartoon
there's a rain cloud
Above my head
It doesn't feel real
I want my life to be like the movies
I hate that there is so much violence... everywhere
Every moment somebody is dying
somebody is crying
somebody is laughing
dancing, singing, driving
living, running, falling,
I hate that I feel this way
I search for help constantly
Yet, I do nothing to stop this
I want to change everything, everywhere
Just like a cartoon
I am trapped doing the same thing
over and over and over
I just need a friend, a break, a way out
of this way that I am feeling, hurting, dying inside